Thank you 2024, Welcome 2025!

 

I just read last year's entry.  My theme was 'Act on my commitments, not my feelings'.  Huh?  I did not remember that.  I was sure it was Authentic Empowerment.  Nope - that was 2023's theme!

As far as the goals I set for myself?  I did not achieve even one.  

        I came close with the dentist.  I did get dental work done this year, but there is another phase I could have started this year but didn't.

Here are three things I learned about myself this year:

        I do not cope well when I feel stressed, anxious, overwhelmed. I retreat.
        I don't trust myself to make change in my life.  I don't believe I can do it.
        I avoid feeling emotions by pretending everything is fine.

Here are two things I want to accept about myself:

        I prefer small bites throughout the day rather than a full meal eaten in 30 minutes. I like to snack.
        I am most comfortable doing a task right before its due.  I don't like to get things done before they're expected.

The major event this year was that my Mother died.  I am grateful I got to know her better as a person and not just my Mother.  We had a couple lovely experiences that made all the difference for me in terms of coping with her loss.  I do find it's a constant surprise that she's gone for real.  

I have more TV, Book, and Movie highlights for 2024 than I have accomplishments.  Here they are:

        *Ghosts UK (Episodic)
        The Traitors (Episodic)
        *Taskmaster (Episodic)
        Jet Lagged (Episodic)
        Poor Things (Movie)
                Hysteria, The Creator, and Oppenheimer are Honorable Mentions
        3 Body Problem (Episodic)
        Extraordinary (Episodic)
        Fallout (Episodic)
        Death and Other Details (Episodic)
        The Mastery of Self (Book)
        Tig (Movie)
        Hello Again (Movie)
        *Indigo Girls - It's Only Life After All (Movie)
        The Handsome Podcast
        Hacks (Episodic)
        Star Trek Discovery (Episodic)
        *Star Trek Prodigy (Episodic)
        Molli and Max In The Future (Movie)
        *Alex Edelman: Just For Us (Movie)
        *Culinary Class Wars (Episodic)
        Throughline podcast episode called "When Things Fall Apart"
        *Get On Your Knees (Movie)
        Slow Horses (Episodic)
        Van Der Velk (Episodic)

        *A Man on the Inside (Episodic)
        *Nobody Wants This (Episodic)

For 2025 my theme is Authentic Transformation. The word 'transformation' is active. It would mean I'm actually changing.  I have not known how to change in all these years gone by. I think understanding my emotions and having a better relationship with my emotions will help me change.  

I'm focusing on skills from The Four Agreements, The Seat of the Soul, A New Earth, and the Seth books.

I'm studying a course from The Seat Of The Soul Institute; Authentic Guidelines.

The January Challenge for me is scheduling time to reflect in the BuJo and participate in the (online, self-paced) Authentic Guidelines course.

Food and Exercise are major issues I must contend with.  

I'm going to leave it there this year. 

I wish everyone a Happy New Year, and I wish for peace on this planet. 

Love.